28. Almost An Adult

My friend Jamie and I were talking on the phone Sunday night and talked about a lot of stuff, but basically, it all revolved around our youth group's retreat to IHOP: One Thing Conference.

I'm super excited about this year's One Thing conference. For many reasons, but there's one reason that I'm going crazy over.

Let's start from the beginning.
My spiritual life has been a crazy ride so far. I used to be REALLY dry, just another Sunday-Christian. I didn't know about all the wonders God could reveal to a person, thus I didn't care for Him [but that was kind of fueled by a certain event in my life]. Anyways, this summer, I've been really blessed by God. He's shown me SOOOOO many things and I'm soo thankful. BUT. The things that have happened during the summer && the things that have occurred at other times haven't been LIFE-CHANGING. If y'git.

I may sound a bit selfish but I REALLY want a point in my life where I just surrender EVERYTHING of me to Him. I wish I could just do it. Not have anything actually happen to be, but willingly do it, but I guess God doesn't want to do it that way in my life. Which I'm pretty cool with :) Whatever He wants, I want.

Well anyway, Mike Bickle, a main speaker of the IHOP conference sent out a letter to the IHOP facebook group, which I am a part of. And in this letter, he emphasized on the facts that the One Thing program was gonna change and that there was a certain urgency to get many people to go to this year's one thing conference. THIS SPECIFIC CONFERENCE. Ahh! I'm excited because I received this same message, that there was a certain urgency, a certain life-changing event that was gonna happen in my life, that will change me and the course of my existence. And I really hope that this year's conference will do that. Jamie confirmed that she received the same message, and now that Mike Bickle has sent this message out, I'm pretty stoked. The message I got from God has been confirmed, TWICE.


HOW FREAKING EXCITING?! :D

So yeah. Anyways. I'm 17. I'm almost, legally an adult. And I need to make my own decisions. I need to learn to take control of my life. I need to break away from the shelter my mom created for me [errr...metaphorically speaking. hehe.] yeah. i needs change...haha :)

27. The Magnolia

In Music Theory right now.
Talking about movies.


More like independent films.
Pretty awesome :)

I've always wanted to be a movie buff & my teacher's a SERIOUS movie buff.
And we're talking about all the great movies he's seen. It's awesome.




I really want to go to the Magnolia & the Angelika.
I need to get more exposed. Bahahahaha.

26. Thank You

Oh Thanksgivings :)

The aromas of turkey roasting in the oven, mashed potatoes, simmering gravy, hot buns in the oven, honeyed ham, steamy stuffing, sweeet cranberry sauce being sloshed out of the can, and scumptious candied sweet potatoes.

Delicious, ey? ;)
I know. I, and I believe many of us, look forward to this time of year. Look forward to Thanksgiving. 'Cause you know..the delicious food & the idea of using this one day as an excuse to stuff my face as much as possible. Bahaha.

Well, I just kinda stopped for a second yesterday, and really thought of the meaning of Thanksgiving. Yeah, and I had a feeling that this post may sound a bit cliche, but bear with me, yeah? :) Hehe. Thanks.


Thanksgiving, as I've mentioned before, seems to be a time when many think of food, especially turkey. But, really, the meaning of Thanksgiving is to GIVE THANKS, simply put. I think the media and its nagging idea of a FOOD-FILLED Thanksgiving has really consumed our idea of this particular holiday. It's actually kinda sad when you think about it. What was once a time of spending quality time with family members and enjoying each others' presence has now become a time of competing dinners: Does Mary Lou make the best turkey or does Susanne?

..--



Or maybe this is all just me. Y'know, my family doesn't really spend time TOGETHER to enjoy and celebrate Thanksgiving and we usually go over people's houses for lunch/dinner or both..hmm..interesting...? x)


Well anyways, enough jibber-jabber, imma say my thanks now.



Thank You God for:

bringing me to life
entering my life
being my Father
giving me a great family
providing me with an amazing church & spiritual family
all the hardships that have come my way
my amazing and steadfast friends
helping me grow in You
my talents
answering my prayers throughout this year
diaries & INKY pens
education
love
warm blankets
opportunities
music and talented singers
Your Word
Your neverending love

God..just thank You..SO much for this past year.
It's impacted my life a great deal.

Thank Youuuu.

25. If Only

If only reality wasn't so harsh.
If only things could go the way I want it.
If only people would engage in random acts of kindness.
If only the world was a better place.
If only we could plant love and give a bit to everyone.
If only competition didn't exist.
If only everyone could be accepted by one another.
If only poverty was stricken down.
If only the hurt could be loved.
If only people would understand one another.
If only judgement didn't exist.
If only rumors were never formed.
If only families would love each other.
If only all diseases could be cured.
If only genocide and war couldn't occur.
If only sin was nonexistent.


If only Jesus would come back down to Earth.



Then, everything would be perfect.

24. Tonight Is the Right Night

...Everybody's alright~ ;)
bahahahaha. it's a song..hehe.

Okay, so yesterday was our first musical showing, and DUDEEE it went pretty welll :)
Everybody did an amazing job! I'm so glad that things went well.
But....1 down, 3 more to go.

Man, I'm SOOO tired. Rehearsals & this weather...rawrrrr.
It's bringing out the beast in me...? Hahaha.
Anyways, Andrew and Heetae are coming over tonight to watch the musical :DDDD
andddd maybe Sara. Hopefully she'll be able to :) But anyways.
We're thinking about watching Twilight tonight. Hopefully the 10:15 showing.

I can't wait! That'll be fun :)
I haven't seen them in so long and won't be able to see them Saturday 'cause of the musical :(((
Rawr. But they're coming! So it's all gooooood :)


Ohmy. Things have been gettin kinda crazy.
So many things are happening around me and I can't keep a grip on it all. Iti's so crazy.
And I found out that one of my bestest friends from church is leaving ...realllly soon.
When she told me, I was about to cry..duude, wtfreak.


Why so soooon? :(

23. Mmmmm..oooo

I'm sitting in webdesign, just waiting for us to check our worksheet and such.
I'm also jammin' to Jason Mraz's You and I Both.

Yes. I'm having a great time :)

Hm. I've been SUUUUUUPER busy lately, thus the lack of blogging. But I've been having fun soooo..hahaha. It's all good. Um.

I think I caught a cold :( Again. I'm so sick of getting sick. Blahhhh.



Okay. Actually, I can't concentrate right now. No more blogging. Goodbye.




Before I leave...COME TO BYE BYE BIRDIE :)))))))

22. How Utterly Lame

Q: What does a seventeen year old girl do on a lonely Friday night?




A: Reads a freakin book for 3 1/2 hours and finishes it.


..Yeah. I know. LAME.

Seventeen. A great age to be at, as some would say. There's a sense of freedom, only a year or so left until one is, legally, an adult, and should be chillin out with friends and having fun.

But this chick right here obviously doesn't feel that way, nor can she partake in any fun extracurricular activities because her mother can't tolerate her daughter staying out a bit late at the moment.

SATs are, I'm sure, on the minds of many Asian parents.. --



Hmph. I'm just a bit miffed.
I was actually invited to go watch Quantum of Solace with a couple of friends. After rehearsal, as soon as I got into the car, I asked my mom if I could go, and she just laughed at me.

..-- yeah. Encouraging, huh?



Ahhhhh. But I must say..I did quite enjoy the book :) It made me laugh every now and then.



PUAHAHA. I cannot believe I read an entire book in one sitting. That hasn't happened to me in a while.

..Wow. What a nerd I am.

---

One boy. One special boy.
One boy to go with, and talk with, and walk with.
One boy, that's the way it should be. Yeah, yeah!
That's the way it should be.

One boy. One certain boy.
One boy to laugh with, to jump with, have Coke with.
One boy, not two or three.

One day, you'll find out.
This is what life is all about.
You'll need someone who is living just for you.

One boy. one steady boy.
One boy to be with, forever and ever.
One boy.

That's the way it should be. x3


-Bye Bye Birdie
(this has such beautiful harmonies. oh goodnes. it makes me wanna melt. hehe)

21. This Is A First

bahahahah. I'im really excited/happy/giddy.
hahaha. and the reason is that this is the first night when I haven't fallen asleep earlier than I've been doing, which was around 10:30! :D

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY.
you don't even know. I was so sick of sleeping early and not being able to do the thigs I've been wanting to. Haha. So, this is sort of a relief :)
Ah. And I'm listneing to singingdork88. He's really good. Great, unique voice. Check ittt.

Hm. Ah, yes. If you were wondering why I've been sleeping early (yes..10:30 is considered early for me), I have a theory.

This past week, I've been a part of 3-hour rehearsals for our upcoming musical. Every day, since Monday, the pit orchestra has come together, along with the cast, to run through the pieces. And dude..it's been SO tiring. Also, since it was the last week of the six weeks, there have been tests and essays and projects and all this other stuff, so I've been super busy. After every night, I would get home around 8, started on homework, but would end up falling asleep in the middle of doing so. Rawr. It sucked, 'cause I had to get ready for tests and such...so gay.


:)

Haha. But I've enjoyed all the rehearsals and such, so, I'm not really complaining. Tehee.

Anyways. ONE MORE WEEK 'TILL THANKSGIVIN BREAK!!! Woohooo :DDDDD I cannot wait. Seriously. I will be one happy clam. Bahahahaha.

Okay. I shall stop..


Oh! Darn it. I had something else to say..but I forgot. Rawr.
Oh well.

---

We'll cha cha in the nicest honky tonks.
He'll wear a little mustache and sombrero,
My handsome Latin lover from the Bronx.

-Bye Bye Birdie

20. Currently

I'm missing something/someone/some place.


There's this sense of emptiness.
Haha. I have no idea what it is either.






Wtfreak. This is so weird.

19. 'Tis the Season

I was at lunch yesterday, with my friend Joe.

We were talking about food or something, and all of a sudden, he brings up the subject of the season.

You know. Winter, Christmas, snow, presents, bare trees, the chill in the air. Ahhhh. It's such a nice time of the year.

So, as we were talking, it dawned on me how MUCH I love this season! The thought of bundling up in warm, comfy clothing, thick scarves, long pajama pants, the prospect of snow, the chill in the air, getting gifts for people, seeing everyone in good spirits. It's fun seeing how the Christmas season changes people and our attitudes.

And seriously, I love getting gifts for people. It's one of my favorite things to do. Just thinking about what might be the perfect gift for that person...hehehehe :) It's fun stuff.

I really hope that this Christmas will be an amazing one. I wnat to end this year on a good note.



OH! AND OMGOODNESS. I found my dream guitar! http://www.taylorguitars.com/Guitars/Acoustic-Electric/300/312ce/

Yeah...um. Does anyone want to get this for me? :))

18. Whoooop

Praise today was freaking awesome.

So, this past week, I haven't been keeping up with my QT and Bible reading and such..and I just was in desperate need of concentration and determination.
Wellllll...I think God's given me those things today.

I went to praise practice, ready to really put my all into praise. We started to practice, and duuuuude. Something was different. Something had changed in the air.

You know that feeling you get, when things just seem to be falling in just the right places? When you're worry-free? When all you have to do is just let go and not worry?

...Ah. I had that exact feeling.
I felt like I could truly let go and just praise HIM. It seemed like God was lifting off this burden, breaking down these chains that were holding me back. Omgoodness. It just felt sooo good to praise like that today.


No strings attached.


It felt amazing. I just pray that I can kepe up this feeling of freedom and peace. Another week of school will start in 40 or so minutes...and I'm going to be super busy this week because of rehearsals for our musical..Gah.

Please pray for me. Oh! And also for the people that are going to Cherokee this weekend! Those lucky ducks..I wish I could go...but hopefully next time I will :)



Good night.

17. All My Lonesome

After violin lesson, I had some spare time left over, so I began walking around the park near my teacher's house.

It was such nice weather and I, thankfully had my music with me. So, I began to stroll.

Just walking, listening to my music, and enjoying what God created and was doing was absolutely amazing. It felt great to just be away from everything. A sense of peace came over me and it was just my time.

By myself, no one around, enjoying the chilly breeze caressing me.
Ah. It was blissful.


I think imma make every Saturday my "Alone Day." Hahahaha. It was so nice.

And gah. The weather right now is just so perfect. I love it. It's great for taking long walks :)

16. Chat On, Chat Off

So, lately, I've kinda quit AIM.

Stuff happened and I decided to get off it for a while. I don't even know for how long I'll be off, but yeah. Haha.
Strange thing is, is that it's not the first time I took a break from it. Last year, when I was on drill team, I didn't have ANY time at all to get on. Thus, AIM collected dust on my desktop, neglected.

How sad :(

Yeah. But anyways, I was texting with Andrew, the A in JHEADS [post #2 i believe..although John became "solo" so it's just HEAD but that's slightly awkward so..yeah. hahaha. anyways], and it made me realize how precious my friends are. I mean, 'cause I used to talk to Andrew whenever I got on, so once I stopped, I kinda stopped talkin to him too. So lately, we've been texting as our mode of communication :) But we can't do it so often because, as most of ya'll know, it just takes WAY too much time to text back & forth. Anyways, whenever I see JHEADS at church on saturdays/sundays, I just get all giddy 'cause I finally get to see them, face-to-face and talk with one another. It's just really nice.

I think getting away from chatting and AIM is helping me to appreciate my friends a lot more. Which is a good thing, I must say :)

15. Greatness

Ah, yes.

The presidential election is over. The first African American president has been elected. Now, it's time for us to go back to our normal lives and hope that our country will be led with care and greatness.

This election has been quite an exciting one. I think it's one of the first times when all generations, even the elementary kids, were SUPER involved and motivated to vote. Of course, I couldn't vote..(not this year anyway), but it was still an amazing election. I've always wanted to see teenagers a bit more fired up for election & politics. It's kind of an indication that we're all actually growing up and becoming adults. We have the right to make our own decisions and we'll know that they might change the world. It's exciting :)

I'm glad this election ended on a good note though. Either way, whoever would've won, it would've been history in the making, and I'm thrilled to actually be alive in this time.

I hope our country will grow and be led by an admirable president.

---

Okay, so our newest project in photojournalism is ISOLATION. It's basically capturing a small part of a whole, but having that small part take up most of the picture. Quite cool. And, I'm gonna be posting up some of my favorites so far :)

14. The Same Person?

Two different people? Or just one person?

Personally, I think I look realllly different. I've gotten used to myself without glasses 'cause I always take my glasses off at home [they can be such nuisances]. But when I think about it from other people's perspectives...it's quite a shocking transformation. Fun stuff, ,ey? :)

13. Braggadocios

Yesterday, a friend and I were in our class talking to the teacher. Well, while we were talking, my friend asks me: Oh, hey. When do the rings come in?
I replied: On December 11. Why?
She said: Just because. [turns around to the teacher] Y'know, I got this bracelet and it's engraved with my graduating year. It was the same price as a ring!

..--
Okay. Did you really have to add that part? Seriously?..

It just kinda ticked me off 'cause a) we don't really need to know how much you got it for. You get a class ring for the sake of memories. b) the bracelet doesn't even look genuine. It looks like any generic heart linked bracelet, so I don't get why you would flaunt it off like that. And c) it's not the first time she's bragged about expensive things she's bought.



Rawr D:

I don't hate her, if you got that impression.
It's just...she needs to learn to grow up and not flaunt her spendings or whatnot. People don't have to go around proclaiming how much this and that was. That's not gonna help anybody but boost oneself's confidence, making every one else feel like crap.

Hm. I personally don't care how much people buy things for. But that's your business, not mine, so let's keep it that way.

:)

12. Tiny

Recently, I've acquired a nickname in my music theory class.

Guess what it is.
Yup. You've got it right.



TINY.


Haha. I, personally, think it's hilarious [everybody else does too. bahaha]. It's true to my nature..and I guess it's cute in a way..? x) LOL.
I'm totally chill with being called Tiny. I'm one of the few in my class to even have a nickname from my teacher. So it makes me feel special. hehe :)
But there's this total irony between this other student and me.

--You know how Asians are stereotyped as being the short and cute ones? Well, there's this girl in my class, her name's Sarah, and she's a freakin giant (she's 6'0") AND...she's Asian. So HA! to all those that believe the Asian stereotype. You have just been proven wrong :0 LOL. Anyways, yeah. Bahaha. It's just ironic how there are two asians and they're polar opposites of each other, height-wise.

Sadly, she doesn't have a nickname like I do. Maybe I should start calling her Goliath or something.

11. Puffs

My best friend at the moment is Puffs.
You know..the tissue brand :)

I'm currently deathly ill and feel like my head is about to explode.

Yeah. It pretty much sucks :/ Anddddd, I was invited to a costume party this weekend. Um, but I don't think I'll be able to wear a costume. AND I FOUND A SUPER CUTE ONE. Rawr. Hopefully, I'll get better by the end of this week.. :)



Oh yes!
I'm also working on another song at the moment.



Actually, like two..haha. I have two different chord progressions ready, but I feel like they're my choruses...I think I tend to start creating my choruses first whenever I start a song.

I'm also have the progressions, and since I'm taking music theory at the moment, I'm trying to follow the rules. Rawr, but the way I play...I basically break all the rules. HAHA.


..What a rebel I am ;)


Ah, but the only frustrating part right now is that I can't seem to get the lyrics. Nothing is coming to me. My head is a total blank. I sit down before my piano or guitar or keyboard, whatever, and...nothing comes.
Before, words flowed out easily. I had a song before me in 10-20 minutes, but now, I'm staring at a blank lyric-less page for an hour...and still nothing comes. Arg. You don't know how frustrating it is..or maybe you do.

Maybe it's 'cause I'm thinking too hard about making the perfect song. Maybe it's because too many things are consuming my mind at the moment. Maybe it's not the right "season." I have no idea. I want inspiration. I want words to flow out onto the page, but want them to mean something.

I know what I want to talk about, express and convey, but...the words don't seem right. Not strong enough to embody my emotions and thoughts. Frustrating? Yes.



Well, I guess for now, I'll just hang out with my Puffs and sit down with my tea, hoping for something right to write.

10. Seventeen

I've turned seventeen just recently, but I don't feel very different.
I don't feel like I'm older in any way. I just kinda feel like I'm still sixteen at the moment.

Strange? Not really.
Haha. I think most people don't feel a year older when their birthdays come around. Hm.
But then again..I guess you'd need a year's time of being "x-age" in order to feel that age.
And the process starts all over.

Well, I'm dwelling upon this subject of age, because well..my mom had a fit with me yesterday about how I wasn't acting my age, and how I should "grow up and mature like the rest of the world."

..
Yeah. I basically felt like trash and crap after that. Ha.
Greatest feeling ever huh?


Mmm. Well yeah.
I AM seventeen now. Been a month..oh gosh..a month..but I know I should change.
But then again..you can't really force change can you? Can you make it happen? Will it to happen?
AH. It's time I should change. Grow up. Mature. Think like an adult 'cause next year I AM one.



[sigh] This bites.

09. Once Again

Wow. I am so exhausted at the moment.
Today, my youth group hosted a picnic for newcomers and to just hang outt. That lasted for 4-5 hours..
Then, I went to a North Korea praise & prayer night. Wow. It was amazing. I'm sooo glad I went.
I learned a lot about the things that are going on now, and of the conditions of the people in that nation.
I pray that God will fully release that country from it's oppression & lies. Our brothers and sisters need some change over there. Good & glorified change.

Ahhh..yes. So. It's been kind of a long day?
Haha. Mind you, I actually enjoyed every bit of it. It was pretty exciting..hm.


But y'know..I feel sorta hollow [oh snap. that rhymed. haha].
As if something's not right? A part of you was kinda left where it was?

..



Am I making any sense at all? Ahh..
Well I don't know. I just feel super empty right now. Not spiritually or anything, just sorta..empty.
Things are going so well in life right now, but I just feel that way, like something is missing from my life. Ha. it sounds so cliche but it's true. I feel as if I am realllly lacking something/someone.


Ah booo. This bites. I hate feeling this way..and I thought I was all better. Ha.

Once again, Jesus, I ask you help me to not feel this way anymore, that you fill this void inside of me. I just really need you right now.

08. Midday Post

Bahahahaha. I love how my school opens up blogger to us. It's practically the ONLY blog site they let us access. Haha..anyways.

WOW. DUDE. I'm so excited!!!!!! This weekend is gonna be the freakin bombbbbb :D
So, I had an APUSH test today..-- BUTTTTTTTTTT. I think I did really well.
I was flying through that thing :)) Except for those couple of problems that I didn't know the answers to..meh.

But I'm so glad I actually studied for this test. Seriously, I think it's one of the very first tests that I've actually sat down and studied for. HAHA. I'm so bad at studying..no joke. I don't think I now how to properly..but then again, I have my ways. Anddddd I pass my tests sooo...yeah :) Haha.


I'm so screwed in college.

07. This Girl I Know

Yes. She's dear to my heart :)

06. Lonely Shopping Mall

The mall is a great social hangout place.
You can meet [usually] friendly strangers & hang with friends from school. It has a foooood court!, various stores for various tastes, and might even have a movie theatre.
There're are so many things to do and the being in the middle of all the commotion is exciting :)

BUT. This setting only pertains to the weekend.



The mall is quite the opposite during the week.
Barren with all but a few lingerers here & there. I bet if you listened hard, you could hear the a/c blowing throughout the mall.
Yes. It's that quiet.
Yes. It's that eerie.
A mall with practically NO ONE in it? Yeah..seems pretty impossible, but just go check it out for yourself during the week. You'll see what i'm talkin 'boutt ;)

But I mean, it's not like I didn't know this. You've probably seen the nearly empty parking lots when passing by the mall during the week. It's no biggie.

But it's definitely weird when you go inside and experience it for yourself.



It hit me that our shopping malls are quite lonely during the week :(

05. JHEAD

Lately, I've been getting close to a certain group of people.

I've known a couple of them for 2-3 years...and one for only 3 months..but..I feel this deep brother/sisterhood with them. I mean, it's crazy how fast we've all gotten so close. I'm so sure that these people were sent to me from God. And I'm so glad He has.

We've all been going through problems of all sorts. Whether it be about school, our families, our aches and pains, our hearts desires. We've told each other practically everything. And. Wow. Does it feel good to have a "family" like that.

I mean, I have my immediate family and I tell them things, but I still haven't gotten to the point where I can tell them EVERY THING, not even with my mom..BUT. These guys are like..AH! so special to me.

I'm so glad I have them & I hope they know that I'll always be there for them :)




Which leads me to this point: God has introduced so many great people into my life.

I don't everrr regret meeting the people I have. They have all blessed me in one way or another. Even if relationships turned out with me hating the other person, I learned to be patient & forgive; if they turned out to be lasting and loving ones, I learned to love and to care for others.

God ALWAYS has a purpose for making things happen in my life & people have influenced me greatly.



*So note to those I've met, hated, loved, still love, and know, I thank you for entering my life. You guys have been a blessing. Thank you for coming and teaching me lessons that I might've never learned without your presence. You guys are amazing.

And thank you, Father for blessing me with these people. You are SO good.

04. Mooned

SUNDAYS are GREEEEEEAT :)

Sang a song called: You Do All Things Well by Chris Tomlin.
You know, it's so amazing how good & great our God is. He's just soo amazing.
He made every single thing around us. He shaped it and created it with love and care.
He truly does all things well.

Today, we had a scrimmage against binneri and sadly, we lost.
BY A TOUCHDOWN!!! Wow. So shocking. We lost to BINNERI...rawr.
Hopefully, we'll be able to step up our game...bahaha x)

AND OMGOOODNESS!! We're having a picnic on saturday!!!!
YAY. I love picnics :D And, supposedly, it's gonna rain on Wednesday, SO weather will be niceeeee for the rest of the week! Woohoo. I can't wait. This weekend is gonna be a lot of fun :))))

BAHAHAHA OH YEAH.
omgoodness. I was INTENTIONALLY mooned for the first time in my life. HAHAHAHA.
It was freakin hilarious. My friends and I were just chillin and talkin. All of a sudden, John gets up to go downstairs, I look up, and lo & behold, I see his cheeks making its way to the ladder. UM. HAHA.
Yeah...it was pretty exciting. Great experience for sure. LOL.






I can't believe John was my first mooner. HAHA.

03. Nudge

I had all region today :/
It's what I've been dreading this WHOOOLE week & I was right to do so. Haha.
So, I went, played, waited for the results and...

DUN DUN DUNN.
Didn't make it.

Don't worry. I'm not sad, depressed, or angry :)
I'm actually quite apathetic & even a bit glad.

See, the thing is, I kind of learned something from God :D [which kinda makes the situation a bit better. of course ;)]
..Well, more like God spoke to me through this situation. Okay, let me start from 2 weeks ago.

So, I had this APUSH test on Monday. I totalllly forgot that it even existed during the weekend, didn't do the review, which became mandatory & for a quiz grade, and went to school. Well, I quickly heard about the test from a couple of friends and knew that I was totally screwed. I tried copying someone else's review, but to no avail, I couldn't finish it in time [I have APUSH 2nd period]. So, I just went to class hoping for the best, and praying HARD that I'd be able to pass.

Well, a week went by, and my teacher told the class that the review was worth 4 points. In my head, I thought, "Wow. It would biiiite if I got a 66 or something." And as I went to the teacher to get my grade, she looked up from the grades, gave me this torn expression and whispered, "Ooh..66.."

HAHAHAHA. WOW. What are the chances? ..--
So, I was reallllly close to passing, but ... failed by just a couple of points.

The same thing happened today at the auditions.
Honestly, I didn't practice as much as I should've...but I pretty much had everything down, I guess.
Mmm...but when the results came out, I was so ...baffled. I'd taken 45th ... which was RIGHT AFTER the cut line...gah!


So do you see the trend here?

I've constantly been performing beneath my capabilities. In a lot of things actually.. And I believe, this was like a nudge from God telling me that I need to "shape up." I need to start focusing on the present and not thinking about other things. Lately, I've been occupied with a lot of others stuff...but yeah. I need to start focusing. Focusing on my studies, on my music, on God.

Jesus, help. Give me the drive to focus on YOU and all these other things.



*OH! btw.


I HAD A TIM TAM SLAM TODAY!!!!!! :DD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MQZX1nLOJ4&feature=related


YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!

02. "Asymptotes"

Pre-Cal today was hilarious.

So, today's lesson was on rational functions and we learned about asymptotes [these lines that signify where a function would curve? haha]
Well, during the middle of the lesson, some of these senior guys started joking around with "asymptotes."

ie) "Your ASymptote is huge."
"You sit on your ASymptote. Mmhmm."
"Mmmmmmm...ASymptotes!"

Okay. I'm gonna admit that it was pretty funny :)
The whole class laughed at them & their antics. Even the teacher x) haha.

BUT. They crossed the line when they started using it as a deragotory term.

ie) "I wish I could smack that ASymptote."
"Can I see that ASymptote?"*

*I felt like these were directed towards the teacher..-- [She's a young one. Sooo...it started to get super awkward for everyone]


I mean. Yes, I know that guys can get a bit rowdy & perverted like this but...seriously.

Guys, please act your age and be mature.
There are times when you can joke around & make perverted jabs every now and then but...stop after about 5 minutes of it.
Don't make it go on forever...that's stupid.
So. Please act your age :)
OH! And I know our math teacher is "HOT," but...she's married...and pregnant right now....so stop thinking sexual things about her. I'm sure that she won't appreciate it & yeah.

..HAHAHAHA.
Ahhh...boys.

01. Birth

Mmkay. 

So, actually, I'm in photojournalism right now...with Isabela & Tyler [picture later].

Anddddd yeah. Haha. 

I forgot my old account info so..I had to make a new one :( boo.

But 'sall good. 

BIRTH TO A NEW BLOG :D 

Hopefully, I'll be able to regularly update this. Hehe.

Boring post I know..but not for long! x)

Toodles!