03. Nudge

I had all region today :/
It's what I've been dreading this WHOOOLE week & I was right to do so. Haha.
So, I went, played, waited for the results and...

DUN DUN DUNN.
Didn't make it.

Don't worry. I'm not sad, depressed, or angry :)
I'm actually quite apathetic & even a bit glad.

See, the thing is, I kind of learned something from God :D [which kinda makes the situation a bit better. of course ;)]
..Well, more like God spoke to me through this situation. Okay, let me start from 2 weeks ago.

So, I had this APUSH test on Monday. I totalllly forgot that it even existed during the weekend, didn't do the review, which became mandatory & for a quiz grade, and went to school. Well, I quickly heard about the test from a couple of friends and knew that I was totally screwed. I tried copying someone else's review, but to no avail, I couldn't finish it in time [I have APUSH 2nd period]. So, I just went to class hoping for the best, and praying HARD that I'd be able to pass.

Well, a week went by, and my teacher told the class that the review was worth 4 points. In my head, I thought, "Wow. It would biiiite if I got a 66 or something." And as I went to the teacher to get my grade, she looked up from the grades, gave me this torn expression and whispered, "Ooh..66.."

HAHAHAHA. WOW. What are the chances? ..--
So, I was reallllly close to passing, but ... failed by just a couple of points.

The same thing happened today at the auditions.
Honestly, I didn't practice as much as I should've...but I pretty much had everything down, I guess.
Mmm...but when the results came out, I was so ...baffled. I'd taken 45th ... which was RIGHT AFTER the cut line...gah!


So do you see the trend here?

I've constantly been performing beneath my capabilities. In a lot of things actually.. And I believe, this was like a nudge from God telling me that I need to "shape up." I need to start focusing on the present and not thinking about other things. Lately, I've been occupied with a lot of others stuff...but yeah. I need to start focusing. Focusing on my studies, on my music, on God.

Jesus, help. Give me the drive to focus on YOU and all these other things.



*OH! btw.


I HAD A TIM TAM SLAM TODAY!!!!!! :DD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MQZX1nLOJ4&feature=related


YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!