13. Braggadocios

Yesterday, a friend and I were in our class talking to the teacher. Well, while we were talking, my friend asks me: Oh, hey. When do the rings come in?
I replied: On December 11. Why?
She said: Just because. [turns around to the teacher] Y'know, I got this bracelet and it's engraved with my graduating year. It was the same price as a ring!

..--
Okay. Did you really have to add that part? Seriously?..

It just kinda ticked me off 'cause a) we don't really need to know how much you got it for. You get a class ring for the sake of memories. b) the bracelet doesn't even look genuine. It looks like any generic heart linked bracelet, so I don't get why you would flaunt it off like that. And c) it's not the first time she's bragged about expensive things she's bought.



Rawr D:

I don't hate her, if you got that impression.
It's just...she needs to learn to grow up and not flaunt her spendings or whatnot. People don't have to go around proclaiming how much this and that was. That's not gonna help anybody but boost oneself's confidence, making every one else feel like crap.

Hm. I personally don't care how much people buy things for. But that's your business, not mine, so let's keep it that way.

:)

12. Tiny

Recently, I've acquired a nickname in my music theory class.

Guess what it is.
Yup. You've got it right.



TINY.


Haha. I, personally, think it's hilarious [everybody else does too. bahaha]. It's true to my nature..and I guess it's cute in a way..? x) LOL.
I'm totally chill with being called Tiny. I'm one of the few in my class to even have a nickname from my teacher. So it makes me feel special. hehe :)
But there's this total irony between this other student and me.

--You know how Asians are stereotyped as being the short and cute ones? Well, there's this girl in my class, her name's Sarah, and she's a freakin giant (she's 6'0") AND...she's Asian. So HA! to all those that believe the Asian stereotype. You have just been proven wrong :0 LOL. Anyways, yeah. Bahaha. It's just ironic how there are two asians and they're polar opposites of each other, height-wise.

Sadly, she doesn't have a nickname like I do. Maybe I should start calling her Goliath or something.

11. Puffs

My best friend at the moment is Puffs.
You know..the tissue brand :)

I'm currently deathly ill and feel like my head is about to explode.

Yeah. It pretty much sucks :/ Anddddd, I was invited to a costume party this weekend. Um, but I don't think I'll be able to wear a costume. AND I FOUND A SUPER CUTE ONE. Rawr. Hopefully, I'll get better by the end of this week.. :)



Oh yes!
I'm also working on another song at the moment.



Actually, like two..haha. I have two different chord progressions ready, but I feel like they're my choruses...I think I tend to start creating my choruses first whenever I start a song.

I'm also have the progressions, and since I'm taking music theory at the moment, I'm trying to follow the rules. Rawr, but the way I play...I basically break all the rules. HAHA.


..What a rebel I am ;)


Ah, but the only frustrating part right now is that I can't seem to get the lyrics. Nothing is coming to me. My head is a total blank. I sit down before my piano or guitar or keyboard, whatever, and...nothing comes.
Before, words flowed out easily. I had a song before me in 10-20 minutes, but now, I'm staring at a blank lyric-less page for an hour...and still nothing comes. Arg. You don't know how frustrating it is..or maybe you do.

Maybe it's 'cause I'm thinking too hard about making the perfect song. Maybe it's because too many things are consuming my mind at the moment. Maybe it's not the right "season." I have no idea. I want inspiration. I want words to flow out onto the page, but want them to mean something.

I know what I want to talk about, express and convey, but...the words don't seem right. Not strong enough to embody my emotions and thoughts. Frustrating? Yes.



Well, I guess for now, I'll just hang out with my Puffs and sit down with my tea, hoping for something right to write.

10. Seventeen

I've turned seventeen just recently, but I don't feel very different.
I don't feel like I'm older in any way. I just kinda feel like I'm still sixteen at the moment.

Strange? Not really.
Haha. I think most people don't feel a year older when their birthdays come around. Hm.
But then again..I guess you'd need a year's time of being "x-age" in order to feel that age.
And the process starts all over.

Well, I'm dwelling upon this subject of age, because well..my mom had a fit with me yesterday about how I wasn't acting my age, and how I should "grow up and mature like the rest of the world."

..
Yeah. I basically felt like trash and crap after that. Ha.
Greatest feeling ever huh?


Mmm. Well yeah.
I AM seventeen now. Been a month..oh gosh..a month..but I know I should change.
But then again..you can't really force change can you? Can you make it happen? Will it to happen?
AH. It's time I should change. Grow up. Mature. Think like an adult 'cause next year I AM one.



[sigh] This bites.

09. Once Again

Wow. I am so exhausted at the moment.
Today, my youth group hosted a picnic for newcomers and to just hang outt. That lasted for 4-5 hours..
Then, I went to a North Korea praise & prayer night. Wow. It was amazing. I'm sooo glad I went.
I learned a lot about the things that are going on now, and of the conditions of the people in that nation.
I pray that God will fully release that country from it's oppression & lies. Our brothers and sisters need some change over there. Good & glorified change.

Ahhh..yes. So. It's been kind of a long day?
Haha. Mind you, I actually enjoyed every bit of it. It was pretty exciting..hm.


But y'know..I feel sorta hollow [oh snap. that rhymed. haha].
As if something's not right? A part of you was kinda left where it was?

..



Am I making any sense at all? Ahh..
Well I don't know. I just feel super empty right now. Not spiritually or anything, just sorta..empty.
Things are going so well in life right now, but I just feel that way, like something is missing from my life. Ha. it sounds so cliche but it's true. I feel as if I am realllly lacking something/someone.


Ah booo. This bites. I hate feeling this way..and I thought I was all better. Ha.

Once again, Jesus, I ask you help me to not feel this way anymore, that you fill this void inside of me. I just really need you right now.

08. Midday Post

Bahahahaha. I love how my school opens up blogger to us. It's practically the ONLY blog site they let us access. Haha..anyways.

WOW. DUDE. I'm so excited!!!!!! This weekend is gonna be the freakin bombbbbb :D
So, I had an APUSH test today..-- BUTTTTTTTTTT. I think I did really well.
I was flying through that thing :)) Except for those couple of problems that I didn't know the answers to..meh.

But I'm so glad I actually studied for this test. Seriously, I think it's one of the very first tests that I've actually sat down and studied for. HAHA. I'm so bad at studying..no joke. I don't think I now how to properly..but then again, I have my ways. Anddddd I pass my tests sooo...yeah :) Haha.


I'm so screwed in college.

07. This Girl I Know

Yes. She's dear to my heart :)

06. Lonely Shopping Mall

The mall is a great social hangout place.
You can meet [usually] friendly strangers & hang with friends from school. It has a foooood court!, various stores for various tastes, and might even have a movie theatre.
There're are so many things to do and the being in the middle of all the commotion is exciting :)

BUT. This setting only pertains to the weekend.



The mall is quite the opposite during the week.
Barren with all but a few lingerers here & there. I bet if you listened hard, you could hear the a/c blowing throughout the mall.
Yes. It's that quiet.
Yes. It's that eerie.
A mall with practically NO ONE in it? Yeah..seems pretty impossible, but just go check it out for yourself during the week. You'll see what i'm talkin 'boutt ;)

But I mean, it's not like I didn't know this. You've probably seen the nearly empty parking lots when passing by the mall during the week. It's no biggie.

But it's definitely weird when you go inside and experience it for yourself.



It hit me that our shopping malls are quite lonely during the week :(

05. JHEAD

Lately, I've been getting close to a certain group of people.

I've known a couple of them for 2-3 years...and one for only 3 months..but..I feel this deep brother/sisterhood with them. I mean, it's crazy how fast we've all gotten so close. I'm so sure that these people were sent to me from God. And I'm so glad He has.

We've all been going through problems of all sorts. Whether it be about school, our families, our aches and pains, our hearts desires. We've told each other practically everything. And. Wow. Does it feel good to have a "family" like that.

I mean, I have my immediate family and I tell them things, but I still haven't gotten to the point where I can tell them EVERY THING, not even with my mom..BUT. These guys are like..AH! so special to me.

I'm so glad I have them & I hope they know that I'll always be there for them :)




Which leads me to this point: God has introduced so many great people into my life.

I don't everrr regret meeting the people I have. They have all blessed me in one way or another. Even if relationships turned out with me hating the other person, I learned to be patient & forgive; if they turned out to be lasting and loving ones, I learned to love and to care for others.

God ALWAYS has a purpose for making things happen in my life & people have influenced me greatly.



*So note to those I've met, hated, loved, still love, and know, I thank you for entering my life. You guys have been a blessing. Thank you for coming and teaching me lessons that I might've never learned without your presence. You guys are amazing.

And thank you, Father for blessing me with these people. You are SO good.

04. Mooned

SUNDAYS are GREEEEEEAT :)

Sang a song called: You Do All Things Well by Chris Tomlin.
You know, it's so amazing how good & great our God is. He's just soo amazing.
He made every single thing around us. He shaped it and created it with love and care.
He truly does all things well.

Today, we had a scrimmage against binneri and sadly, we lost.
BY A TOUCHDOWN!!! Wow. So shocking. We lost to BINNERI...rawr.
Hopefully, we'll be able to step up our game...bahaha x)

AND OMGOOODNESS!! We're having a picnic on saturday!!!!
YAY. I love picnics :D And, supposedly, it's gonna rain on Wednesday, SO weather will be niceeeee for the rest of the week! Woohoo. I can't wait. This weekend is gonna be a lot of fun :))))

BAHAHAHA OH YEAH.
omgoodness. I was INTENTIONALLY mooned for the first time in my life. HAHAHAHA.
It was freakin hilarious. My friends and I were just chillin and talkin. All of a sudden, John gets up to go downstairs, I look up, and lo & behold, I see his cheeks making its way to the ladder. UM. HAHA.
Yeah...it was pretty exciting. Great experience for sure. LOL.






I can't believe John was my first mooner. HAHA.

03. Nudge

I had all region today :/
It's what I've been dreading this WHOOOLE week & I was right to do so. Haha.
So, I went, played, waited for the results and...

DUN DUN DUNN.
Didn't make it.

Don't worry. I'm not sad, depressed, or angry :)
I'm actually quite apathetic & even a bit glad.

See, the thing is, I kind of learned something from God :D [which kinda makes the situation a bit better. of course ;)]
..Well, more like God spoke to me through this situation. Okay, let me start from 2 weeks ago.

So, I had this APUSH test on Monday. I totalllly forgot that it even existed during the weekend, didn't do the review, which became mandatory & for a quiz grade, and went to school. Well, I quickly heard about the test from a couple of friends and knew that I was totally screwed. I tried copying someone else's review, but to no avail, I couldn't finish it in time [I have APUSH 2nd period]. So, I just went to class hoping for the best, and praying HARD that I'd be able to pass.

Well, a week went by, and my teacher told the class that the review was worth 4 points. In my head, I thought, "Wow. It would biiiite if I got a 66 or something." And as I went to the teacher to get my grade, she looked up from the grades, gave me this torn expression and whispered, "Ooh..66.."

HAHAHAHA. WOW. What are the chances? ..--
So, I was reallllly close to passing, but ... failed by just a couple of points.

The same thing happened today at the auditions.
Honestly, I didn't practice as much as I should've...but I pretty much had everything down, I guess.
Mmm...but when the results came out, I was so ...baffled. I'd taken 45th ... which was RIGHT AFTER the cut line...gah!


So do you see the trend here?

I've constantly been performing beneath my capabilities. In a lot of things actually.. And I believe, this was like a nudge from God telling me that I need to "shape up." I need to start focusing on the present and not thinking about other things. Lately, I've been occupied with a lot of others stuff...but yeah. I need to start focusing. Focusing on my studies, on my music, on God.

Jesus, help. Give me the drive to focus on YOU and all these other things.



*OH! btw.


I HAD A TIM TAM SLAM TODAY!!!!!! :DD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MQZX1nLOJ4&feature=related


YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!

02. "Asymptotes"

Pre-Cal today was hilarious.

So, today's lesson was on rational functions and we learned about asymptotes [these lines that signify where a function would curve? haha]
Well, during the middle of the lesson, some of these senior guys started joking around with "asymptotes."

ie) "Your ASymptote is huge."
"You sit on your ASymptote. Mmhmm."
"Mmmmmmm...ASymptotes!"

Okay. I'm gonna admit that it was pretty funny :)
The whole class laughed at them & their antics. Even the teacher x) haha.

BUT. They crossed the line when they started using it as a deragotory term.

ie) "I wish I could smack that ASymptote."
"Can I see that ASymptote?"*

*I felt like these were directed towards the teacher..-- [She's a young one. Sooo...it started to get super awkward for everyone]


I mean. Yes, I know that guys can get a bit rowdy & perverted like this but...seriously.

Guys, please act your age and be mature.
There are times when you can joke around & make perverted jabs every now and then but...stop after about 5 minutes of it.
Don't make it go on forever...that's stupid.
So. Please act your age :)
OH! And I know our math teacher is "HOT," but...she's married...and pregnant right now....so stop thinking sexual things about her. I'm sure that she won't appreciate it & yeah.

..HAHAHAHA.
Ahhh...boys.

01. Birth

Mmkay. 

So, actually, I'm in photojournalism right now...with Isabela & Tyler [picture later].

Anddddd yeah. Haha. 

I forgot my old account info so..I had to make a new one :( boo.

But 'sall good. 

BIRTH TO A NEW BLOG :D 

Hopefully, I'll be able to regularly update this. Hehe.

Boring post I know..but not for long! x)

Toodles!